. Last Ex .. who made my heart turns to stone

I have my 2 years relationship with my bf that time when i met my Last man...The guy i used to be with for almost 2 years is a muslim and we broke up because of many reasons. We broke up 7 days before our 2nd year anniversary supposed to be. The day when my ex broke me up is also the day i Met Mark raven.. He is very handsome and a lot of girls are really attracted to him except Me,, because i was inlove with my ex before. He was staying at his uncle's grocery at harap lng din yun ng pinagworkan ko..... lagi nmn nkikita ang isat isa..... my friend had a huge crush on him and as a friend she asks me to ask for his number and because i was brave enough to ask for it i do it for my friend...one time bumili ako sa knila and natawa pako kasi nataranta sya na pagbilhan ako.. i asked his number and he gave it to me..natuwa nmn ang friend ko kasi nkuha nia number ni mark..ewan ko ba kung bkit ngkaron din ako ng interes na itext din sya.Ngreply nmn sya and tlgang nging textmates kmi.. after that we exchanged msg and be comfortable with each other... sya nlng lagi nakkausap ko at unti unti ko nkalimutan ang ex ko.... we are always texing and calling each other.. one time he called me bhaby .. as a sign of care and sweet thoughts of him.. and i realized that one day i totally in love with him... he invited me to their place in cavite i met his lola .. and stay there for a night and a day.. i was so happy that time that i hve felt that we are already lovers although he told me that he realy likes me i was so afraid to love him because of my experience on my last bf.. but he promised me that if ever we will be lovers he will be a good man and he will never hurts me ,, or even cheat on me... thats why i trust him ... we became officialy lovers last august 23 2009 and it was very romantic.. but it came to a point that i thought that it would last forever as i promised to him that He will be my last man.. last guy that can hold and kiss me last guy i will ever loved. after 2 months of long distance reltionship because he decided to go back to his house in makati while i was on taguig... its very sad because i was afraid that it will lessen the love we had for each other.. and i was right... when we are in 2 months of my relationship with him i was awaken by a text msg of a girl claiming that she is also had a commitment with my BF ... that also lives in makati.. at first i didnt trust the girl because i love my bf so much... but after 2 mos again we are in 4 monthsary already he sleeps on my house here a laguna when i decided to have my vacation here... i looked out on his phone and i doscover a lot of simcards and i found out that one of this sims are owned by the girl who had texted me and i asked him what is her relstionship with that girl and he told me that he commited a mistake by flrting with that girl because i need money the gurl is rich that's why everytime we nee money he asks his girl to lend some.. it was his reason i didnt know if im going to believe him... after that my trust on him was faded and i became so suspicious every time he didint texted me or giving enough time.. i will always accused him that he is meeting other girls.. i know it was sarcastic but its not my fault anymore ... last december he broke me up because he said he needs to fix hs past frst and changed himself.. at frst it was quite hard very hard for me... until then until now we dont have commitment... but he still saying i love you i mis you that he wants me to be his wife... etc.. but those words are not enough i didint feel it in his actions... that;s why its really painful for me... when i always check out his accounts on FB , he strted asking numbers from other girls, and displaying some photo comments to other girls appraising them that they are pretty.. etc.. and me? i always send him message hoping that at least one message from him could i have but he didint replied any of my msg... but when we are talking on the phone he still insisting he loves me very much... thats why im very confused?? why is that liked that?? huhuh... i dont know where would i put myself for him to understand me...? !!! do you think he is just saying those soft words for me to not to get hurt ... or for me to thnk that he cares??? i was get hurt ,,its very painful....
do i need to feel this way just because i loved him?
please give me some advice...

after that I have heard news that He already have 2 sons in 2 different Girl :(

sad to say but I am glad I am not that woman

But poor girls they are :(